Today was a good day. I took some nice photos on the train and at the fountain with my cousins, they were good. Mom said we may go to Europe backpacking for the summer.
I can’t focus this morning, my tummy hurts
exist between the things
exist in spaces between
the things left to dust
i feel the pills in my bones. my head aches. i don’t wan’t to cry anymore.
make me numb.
she makes my heart hurt
i love her, she makes my stomach twist into knots, my nerves fizz like pouring seltzer into a glass. the carbonation rises to the surface. they’re released, more and more come until it’s flat. sweet and tired. the taste is pleasent but almost too sweet
she makes me forget how unhappy i am, i love her. i love her like something that’s always there to hold me, kiss my finger tips, tuck her hair back and hear her breath against my face, her smell
she hates me for loving her, her eyes are soft still. mahogany.
i love her
sometimes i notice the lines on my hands while im writing
it’s loud tonight, people are yelling
i am very very unhappy